Just another day except I'm trapped at home waiting for the boys from Argos to deliver a new washing machine. Our old one is Kaput. Yes, I did think about dressing up for when they arrived but I'm not sure who would have been more freaked out by it, me or them? Anyway I've decided not to. Not brave enough but wearing a glittering bracelet and pink crystal stud earings and if that isn't a give away I don't know what will be. Answers on a postcard please :¬) They should arrive somewhere between 1 and 6pm. How crazy is that? When my iPhone was delivered I was told within the hour.
I went for my 2 mile walk this morning at the coast. A bit chilly but not too cold. It looked dismal across the estuary though. I wonder if Kent is getting a lashing. This is day three of my diet and I haven't weighed myself yet. My third day without bread. I think I'm feeling better already for it though. I also read an article about dieting where it said that a calorie just isn't a calorie. Let me explain. Some calories are easier to burn off than others so it's important to eat the right calories. The article went on to say that those who took up just a low calorie diet weren't always guaranteed to lose much whereas those on say the Atkins diet would lose so much more. I don't even know what the Atkins diet is. I think it was a fad a few years back. I'll have to do some more research.
S and I were thinking about going to see the Rocky Horror Show somewhere but not sure how to dress up. Is there anywhere where you can buy costumes? I would like to know. I suppose we could try and knock something up.
I would like to dress up this afternoon. Not good at doing make-up though and S will be missed when I start to do it.
PM
Washing machine arrives at 2.30. I ask them if they are going to connect it. They say no and I argue with them. I said my wife paid for the connection. They apologise but they don't do connections. I get pissed off and let them know. Turns out my wife thought she paid for the connection but didn't. So now I have to connect it. It's not difficult but could do without the hassle.
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
Tuesday, 9 April 2013
Tuesday 9th April 2013
Had some time off yesterday as I do today. I've been trying to lose weight. I know it worries my friends and family. I think they think I'm going to have a heart attack any minute. Perhaps I will. Anyway this is day two of my diet and I'm not feeling to bad on it. I'm trying to do without bread to see if it stops that bloated feeling and look that I get. I'm walking two miles a day, not far I know but it's a start. I stopped of in Leigh at an established Haberdashery which was called Richardsons. It was nice in there and I picked my material for my apron which is on my list to make for myself. I chose a pink and white gingham. Very girly. I'm going to edge it with some white lace that I think is called Anglais. I may even put a heart shaped pocket on it or perhaps some girly design. Ideas are welcome.
I also took the drive with my friend Julie (gg) to go to Tiptree and visit the so-called 'Cheap Shop'. Cheap it isn't. Just as pricey as Hobbycraft in my opinion. Still it will have anything that you want to do with Crafts and Arts. We later stopped off in a garden centre. I can't think of the name of it but it's the one where my wife, S, wants to take me fully dressed. I'm getting close to telling Julie about my crossdressing. I've been friends with her for a long time and I don't want that to change so telling is a risk.
I recieved an email this morning to say that my iPhone will be delivered between 11.33 and 12.33. Can't wait for it to come as being without a decent phone is tedious. I just love the apps and the facilities that an iPhone gives me. I also like to keep my photos store on there. I'm not sure whether to set it up with iCloud or Dropbox. Your advice on this is most welcome. I'll add some more to this throughout the day so check back from time to time.
Oh I nearly forgot. I've been wearing a very girly braclet and earing today while in male mode and haven't had any adverse reaction to it.
PM
My new iPhone has arrived. Yipeeeee!!! Now I can keep up to date with everything on the move. I might share this with some people. Feeling tired and hungry now. Think I need to get my head down soon. Hope to dress enfemme later and go for a walk.
I also took the drive with my friend Julie (gg) to go to Tiptree and visit the so-called 'Cheap Shop'. Cheap it isn't. Just as pricey as Hobbycraft in my opinion. Still it will have anything that you want to do with Crafts and Arts. We later stopped off in a garden centre. I can't think of the name of it but it's the one where my wife, S, wants to take me fully dressed. I'm getting close to telling Julie about my crossdressing. I've been friends with her for a long time and I don't want that to change so telling is a risk.
I recieved an email this morning to say that my iPhone will be delivered between 11.33 and 12.33. Can't wait for it to come as being without a decent phone is tedious. I just love the apps and the facilities that an iPhone gives me. I also like to keep my photos store on there. I'm not sure whether to set it up with iCloud or Dropbox. Your advice on this is most welcome. I'll add some more to this throughout the day so check back from time to time.
Oh I nearly forgot. I've been wearing a very girly braclet and earing today while in male mode and haven't had any adverse reaction to it.
PM
My new iPhone has arrived. Yipeeeee!!! Now I can keep up to date with everything on the move. I might share this with some people. Feeling tired and hungry now. Think I need to get my head down soon. Hope to dress enfemme later and go for a walk.
Saturday, 6 April 2013
My New Hobby
I want to make my own clothes. The only trouble is I know nothing about how clothes are made so last night I learned how to sew. I learned the difference between a running stitch and a back stitch. I practiced them both then set about making this.
Not bad is it?
I used three differnt kinds of materials, which includes the ribbon. It looks very girly but that's what I also love about it. I've never made anything like this before.
To be honest I've been inspired by the BBCs new series called the Great British Sewing Bee. I loved the programme so much I watched it twice. I've always wanted to make my own Sissy Dress so hopefully one day I'll have the skills to do it. I also want to make an Apron.
If anyone has any sewing or dressmaking tips I'd be pleased to hear them. I wonder if there are any other transvestites out there who make there own clothes. Currently I only know of one, Nancy Ball, who I've seen on flickr.
Saturday 6th April
Well another week has gone by but not without some high points. I spent most of it working. These short weeks that are punctuated by the Bank Holidays always seem to be longer. Perhaps it's the anticipation of it being a short week that makes it seem longer. I remember when I was a child and the summer holidays seem to go on forever. Children seem to have the knack of ignoring time and just getting on with life. Wish I could be like that again.
S and I went on to the Pier at Southend on Good Friday. We walked there and back which was a welcome exercise. It was really cold though. There is a new centre at the end of the Pier which we had been meaning to visit for some time. It wasn't worth it though. There was an exhibition of 'Only Fools and Horses' in the main part of the building. Although we loved the series the exhibition of it wasn't our thing. We stopped in the cafe and that was a bit disappointing too. It was very small and the range of food wasn't that good. So it was a tea cake with a cuppa.
Bank Holiday Monday was a bit different. I dressed in the evening and went to visit J. J is male and is fully accepting of me as Carolyn. He was a true gentleman and treated me very well. I hope I get a chance to visit him again soon. It was a 40 minute drive to his house and it's the furthest I've driven myself dressed enfemme.
S and I went on to the Pier at Southend on Good Friday. We walked there and back which was a welcome exercise. It was really cold though. There is a new centre at the end of the Pier which we had been meaning to visit for some time. It wasn't worth it though. There was an exhibition of 'Only Fools and Horses' in the main part of the building. Although we loved the series the exhibition of it wasn't our thing. We stopped in the cafe and that was a bit disappointing too. It was very small and the range of food wasn't that good. So it was a tea cake with a cuppa.
Bank Holiday Monday was a bit different. I dressed in the evening and went to visit J. J is male and is fully accepting of me as Carolyn. He was a true gentleman and treated me very well. I hope I get a chance to visit him again soon. It was a 40 minute drive to his house and it's the furthest I've driven myself dressed enfemme.
This is a photo of me at Js
Also had a birthday during the week and now I'm 57! Yikes!!!
It's the afternoon now and I can tell you that this morning went very well. S took me for a drive to Basildon Town Centre to collect a book from the Post Office she bought for me called 'Miss Vera's Crossdress for Success'. Can't wait to start reading it. I stayed in the car but I did walk to the ticket machine to pay for the parking. It was nice walking in the fresh air and then standing in line behind a couple of women. They did their best to ignore me. I've realised when I go out I'm a bit of a curiosity and most people just like to satisfy there curiosity and have a bit of a snicker.
It's the afternoon now and I can tell you that this morning went very well. S took me for a drive to Basildon Town Centre to collect a book from the Post Office she bought for me called 'Miss Vera's Crossdress for Success'. Can't wait to start reading it. I stayed in the car but I did walk to the ticket machine to pay for the parking. It was nice walking in the fresh air and then standing in line behind a couple of women. They did their best to ignore me. I've realised when I go out I'm a bit of a curiosity and most people just like to satisfy there curiosity and have a bit of a snicker.
This was taken just after I returned to the car.
S then drove to a few local woodland and heath spots for me to walk about. I've put the photos up on my flickr page. Looking forward to this evening so I can dress up again and go out and about.
Sunday, 31 March 2013
Went to the Woods
S and I went to a Suffolk Woodland yesterday. I thought I would get a chance to put my new outfit on but it didn't happen. Instead I dressed in a black woollen tunic and fishnet tights. I dressed at home so the drive was also exciting. S doesn't mind doing the driving while I'm dressed so I can enjoy the myself and chill out. The most nervous moments are getting out of the house but I'm beginning to get philosophical about it all in so much that if I get seen then I get seen. The drive took just under two hours and because we left late we headed for the fish and chip restaurant. S went in to get the food and I sat in the car. As always, I suppose I'm a bit of a curiosity, people seem to stare somewhat. It was a busy car park and a popular destination. I normally wear sunglasses so it makes it easier for me to see who's looking.
After our food, which was yummy by the way and didn't do anything to help my diet at all, we went to a local woodland car park which is fairly secluded, apart from some walkers and dog owners, and somewhere I can get out and have a walk. Of course I get seen and it is a bit scary but I managed to enjoy myself. Such freedom is virtually impossible to get closer to home. Perhaps I should be bolder and from time to time I am. This has included a 35 minute circular walk (see below).
S took a couple of photos of me which are included here.
You can't see it very well in the photos but I was also wearing a bright pink chain necklace and bracelet.
After a couple of hours walking about we moved on to somewhere else and we must have been noticed because a blue saloon car followed. We pulled up on small parking spot next to the woodland and I got out. I was then followed by the man who caught up with me and we stood having a conversation about my crossdressing. I never got his name but he seemed more interested in looking at S and after about 20 minutes he moved on
A Little Home Excursion
A short while ago, a Sunday evening, I was so fed up I decided, probably in a moment of madness, to go out for a walk dressed enfemme from home. I planned a circular route from home and the trip both S and I calculated to be about 15 minutes. Well we got that wrong because it took just over half an hour. I decided to wear my red shift dress and my coat as it was cold. I was quite brave at first but as I got further away from the safety of my home the nerves started to take hold. Fortunately the excitement of being out dressed overcame the nerves. So turning left out of my home I headed up the road passing on the way the neighbour's home would recognise if they saw me but under the cover of darkness it helped to keep my secret safe. Our road is fairly busy and cars were going by all the time. I don't mind the cars coming from behind me, it's the cars coming towards you that cause problems because you are in their headlights and the our road isn't that well lit. After a few hundred yards I turned left onto **** Road. This road is heavily populated residential area. The odd car passed by but the walk up the hill to the major A road went without incident and I tried to enjoy the feeling of being out dressed as woman. As I reached the A road I was surprised just how well it was lit and although I've driven up and down this road many times I hadn't really noticed it before. Cars were going past me a some speed so by the time they realised what I was, if they did, it was already too late. I walked past a speed camera and wondered that if it went off would I be in the photo. The thought amused me to think of me being captured like that. The most nerve wracking part was going to be walking past McDonalds which was on the next corner. Looking through the window as I went past there weren't many in there, but turning the corner and crossing the road to the entrance there were plenty of cars going in and out for the drive thru. I had to wait while a couple of cars drove slowly across my path and I was definitely seen then. I walked across the road caught in a car's headlights. Keeping my head down and trying to do my most feminine walk I soldiered on (should that be womaned on lol). What else could I do. I was now nearer home going on than to turn around and go back. When I came to a mini roundabout I had to wait while a car went by before crossing but as I did my heart raced because of couple of likely lads appeared walking towards me from across the roundabout. My fear was that if they chose the direction I was going in it meant that they would be behind me and if they saw what I was then they could have easily have followed me back to my home. Fortunately for the me the lure of McDonalds must have been greater because they headed off in that direction. Just another 100 yards and I would be back in my road. As I turned the corner my next fear was if a neighbour was out walking their dog and they would be coming directly towards me. My friends house was the first house I passed and they were thankfully inside. When I looked down road I could see it was clear and the only problem might be if a neighbour was to appear from their drive. Turning on to my drive I remember smiling at just achieving such a milestone. It's something I've always wanted to do. It took just over 30 minutes and gave me a lot of confidence and a chance to practice my girly walk.
Visit to Ikea
Just been told by S that if I wanted to I can go dressed enfemme to Ikea this morning. Not so sure about it. Too many people. Too scary. Just had a thought....its April Fools day to day. Maybe its her way of having a joke on me.
After our food, which was yummy by the way and didn't do anything to help my diet at all, we went to a local woodland car park which is fairly secluded, apart from some walkers and dog owners, and somewhere I can get out and have a walk. Of course I get seen and it is a bit scary but I managed to enjoy myself. Such freedom is virtually impossible to get closer to home. Perhaps I should be bolder and from time to time I am. This has included a 35 minute circular walk (see below).
S took a couple of photos of me which are included here.
I never realised that the tunic was that short. Still I guess the clue is in the word tunic and not dress. Incidently I get a lot of people saying I should be wearing high heels and if I found them comfortable then I would wear them, but I don't so I only wear them occasionally. The highest heel I wear for comfort is about a 1 1/2 inch wedge shoes. The other thing about high heels is that they tend to sink into soft ground which is what the woodlands is made up of.
You can't see it very well in the photos but I was also wearing a bright pink chain necklace and bracelet.
After a couple of hours walking about we moved on to somewhere else and we must have been noticed because a blue saloon car followed. We pulled up on small parking spot next to the woodland and I got out. I was then followed by the man who caught up with me and we stood having a conversation about my crossdressing. I never got his name but he seemed more interested in looking at S and after about 20 minutes he moved on
A Little Home Excursion
A short while ago, a Sunday evening, I was so fed up I decided, probably in a moment of madness, to go out for a walk dressed enfemme from home. I planned a circular route from home and the trip both S and I calculated to be about 15 minutes. Well we got that wrong because it took just over half an hour. I decided to wear my red shift dress and my coat as it was cold. I was quite brave at first but as I got further away from the safety of my home the nerves started to take hold. Fortunately the excitement of being out dressed overcame the nerves. So turning left out of my home I headed up the road passing on the way the neighbour's home would recognise if they saw me but under the cover of darkness it helped to keep my secret safe. Our road is fairly busy and cars were going by all the time. I don't mind the cars coming from behind me, it's the cars coming towards you that cause problems because you are in their headlights and the our road isn't that well lit. After a few hundred yards I turned left onto **** Road. This road is heavily populated residential area. The odd car passed by but the walk up the hill to the major A road went without incident and I tried to enjoy the feeling of being out dressed as woman. As I reached the A road I was surprised just how well it was lit and although I've driven up and down this road many times I hadn't really noticed it before. Cars were going past me a some speed so by the time they realised what I was, if they did, it was already too late. I walked past a speed camera and wondered that if it went off would I be in the photo. The thought amused me to think of me being captured like that. The most nerve wracking part was going to be walking past McDonalds which was on the next corner. Looking through the window as I went past there weren't many in there, but turning the corner and crossing the road to the entrance there were plenty of cars going in and out for the drive thru. I had to wait while a couple of cars drove slowly across my path and I was definitely seen then. I walked across the road caught in a car's headlights. Keeping my head down and trying to do my most feminine walk I soldiered on (should that be womaned on lol). What else could I do. I was now nearer home going on than to turn around and go back. When I came to a mini roundabout I had to wait while a car went by before crossing but as I did my heart raced because of couple of likely lads appeared walking towards me from across the roundabout. My fear was that if they chose the direction I was going in it meant that they would be behind me and if they saw what I was then they could have easily have followed me back to my home. Fortunately for the me the lure of McDonalds must have been greater because they headed off in that direction. Just another 100 yards and I would be back in my road. As I turned the corner my next fear was if a neighbour was out walking their dog and they would be coming directly towards me. My friends house was the first house I passed and they were thankfully inside. When I looked down road I could see it was clear and the only problem might be if a neighbour was to appear from their drive. Turning on to my drive I remember smiling at just achieving such a milestone. It's something I've always wanted to do. It took just over 30 minutes and gave me a lot of confidence and a chance to practice my girly walk.
Visit to Ikea
Just been told by S that if I wanted to I can go dressed enfemme to Ikea this morning. Not so sure about it. Too many people. Too scary. Just had a thought....its April Fools day to day. Maybe its her way of having a joke on me.
Saturday, 30 March 2013
Revitalised
I had a really good day yesterday. My wife decided that it was time we went shopping and bought a new dress, shoes and some costume jewellery for me. She is so good to me. We went into Evans because they have the sizes that will fit me. We spent some time looking about and although I was in male mode I did wear mascara, a pair of owl studs, a feminine ring and a couple of bracelets. So I don't think it could be missed by the shop assistants who we were shopping for. We found a dress and my wife also bought me a shrug to go with it. I'll post a photo later as she has said we'll go for a walk around a garden centre this morning. I didn't have the courage to ask if I could try the dress on in the shop although I really wanted to. There is nothing more disappointing than getting home with all your goodies only to find that what you bought doesn't fit.
In Evans I also got some costume jewellery which include a bracelet, necklace and a ring.
After shopping in Evans we made our way to Brantano's who have a good selection of shoes. We found a pair of wedge heeled shoes with a 1 1/2 inch heels. I did try them on and yes I spotted by other customers but I thought what the hell.
After getting these I'm in girly heaven, revitalised and I'm now looking forward to going out today in them and walking about getting photos. I'll post a couple of photos on here later.
For some time now I've been toying with the idea to tell other people about my crossdressing or at least not being so secretive about it all. It does worry me and I'm concerned not so much about people not accepting but of ridicule and persecution. Yes, I'm also worried about my employers finding out as well. It's difficult to know how people will respond and I would appreciate if anyone else out there could share their experiences.
In Evans I also got some costume jewellery which include a bracelet, necklace and a ring.
After shopping in Evans we made our way to Brantano's who have a good selection of shoes. We found a pair of wedge heeled shoes with a 1 1/2 inch heels. I did try them on and yes I spotted by other customers but I thought what the hell.
After getting these I'm in girly heaven, revitalised and I'm now looking forward to going out today in them and walking about getting photos. I'll post a couple of photos on here later.
For some time now I've been toying with the idea to tell other people about my crossdressing or at least not being so secretive about it all. It does worry me and I'm concerned not so much about people not accepting but of ridicule and persecution. Yes, I'm also worried about my employers finding out as well. It's difficult to know how people will respond and I would appreciate if anyone else out there could share their experiences.
Friday, 8 February 2013
The Urge to Purge
It's been over three months now and I have this downer on my crossdressing. I'm not why I go through this every now and then but I do. If it wasn't for my wife I would have chucked all my girly things away for the umpteenth time, but she is always there encouraging me.
I know this may sound strange to some of you but she missed me being Carolyn. She enjoys who I become. She especially misses our girly nights in chatting about stuff over a glass of Sauvignon. I did dress 4 times including this morning in those three months. Two of those times were because she insisted. When I did dress I really didn't feel like it and it didn't inspire me to dress again. I think I'm through it now because the other night I dressed and went out my home and walked for nearly half and hour. Not sure where the courage came from as I've said before I don't really look the part and did get some odd looks. Fortunately no trouble which is what we all fear when we venture out.
This morning I'm wearing what's in the photo below. I did try high heels but they were too uncomfortable for me. They are lovely though.
Except I was wearing a pair of flat Mary Janes.
It was dark outside and still is. A neighbour walked right past me and didn't see. I think I would have frightened her had she seen me.
Going to go out today but not sure where. My wife says we'll go somewhere. Suffolk or Norfolk is always a favourite if she wants me to dress.
I know this may sound strange to some of you but she missed me being Carolyn. She enjoys who I become. She especially misses our girly nights in chatting about stuff over a glass of Sauvignon. I did dress 4 times including this morning in those three months. Two of those times were because she insisted. When I did dress I really didn't feel like it and it didn't inspire me to dress again. I think I'm through it now because the other night I dressed and went out my home and walked for nearly half and hour. Not sure where the courage came from as I've said before I don't really look the part and did get some odd looks. Fortunately no trouble which is what we all fear when we venture out.
This morning I'm wearing what's in the photo below. I did try high heels but they were too uncomfortable for me. They are lovely though.
It was dark outside and still is. A neighbour walked right past me and didn't see. I think I would have frightened her had she seen me.
Going to go out today but not sure where. My wife says we'll go somewhere. Suffolk or Norfolk is always a favourite if she wants me to dress.
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